She says she loves me
but shes tired…
tired of missing me
not that im not home, but when i am, im so distant shes second guesses kissing me
and still she says she loves me
but she confused…
confused about where I want to be,
and why i still think it cool to leave at 12noon
then dont come in until the next day at 3
but yet she says she loves me
but shes sick..
she sick of trying to figure out who i am
and why she always have provide a plan
because i get mad when she asks,
when she’s only giving me a chance to be a man
yet still she says she loves me
But i dont what love is…
Because… shit as kids….
my momma was young and
still into clubs and
my father had an infatuation with
the streets and drugs
so alot of nights i missed meals
along with kisses hugs
and I want to love her
but the cold deceptions in my life
teaches me not to trust her
my biggest fear is coming back home and shes not there
and i know i should fight and try to keep her
but instead i act like i dont need her
but she tells me she love me
and i should be honest with her and tell her
“you made a mistake again, trusting a man”
but instead..
i give her the temporary satisfaction of i few i love yous
and it will never happen again..
and after so long of me tearing her apart
while she always played her part
another man is after her heart
i dont know to fight or to make this right
but thats going to be kind of hard
because the house was empty, when i got home last night
too late…..